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Saturday, May 13, 20069:42 PM
11th- was thurs.
went for e interview ..
got in.
my parents dint mind ite at 1st. i dont kno wad changed their bloody mind.
dey object to me studyin beauty therapy.
='(
n so i argued n argued. n argued.
no results yet.
thurs... met up wif youliang to get my dvd back. (huifen.happy anot?) actually.i was a lil afraid tt i wil get to c ashley. youliang evn wanted to ask ashley not to come. (cus gg to e movies.) bt i was tinkin. hey. im e xtra la. n so wad if i rili c him? hurs.
well..but in e end i dint go wif dem. cus i was tired. cus huifen's tired. cus im broke. cus huifen's broke. n we both agreed it's awkward.
we actually walk alot tt day.
n =) ya. we haf no sense of direction s usual. if nt for e fact youliang's nice enuff to bring us out.i tink we cld get easily lost.
well.. hmm..me n fen walk arnd. took fotos. chit chat. did stupid stuffs.
n we decided to go hm.(fen hated window shoppin.)
thurs... night.
well.. went hm..slept a lil .. dan woke up . prepare my stuffs. went to meet fen n kf. dan go sch.
evy thurs night my heart wil race faster dan evr.
palpitating heartbeat overwhelms me.
evy single step i took seems to get me further away frm e sch.
i dont kno why i feel dis way.
but i kno i oways get euphoric whenever i kno i will get to c him later..
well.. e teacher dint came. got a i-dont-want-to-comment- relief teacher to teach us instead. did practical on cations.
well.. well.
soon..it was break time.
i was super reluctant to get his no. frm him.
yea.my courage all gone .. cus i tink i just so uncomparable to him.
he's so hot. n wad if he reject to gif. n wad if he got a gf.
well. i promised fen.since i was late in e morn to meet her causin her to b late for e interview..
so we "stalked" him. he went to foyer ..n sat down dere.(dere are benches.)
vy reluctantly.. i wanted to walk away..but i was pushed by fen.
well. upon reachin him. he was about to make a call.. n dan.
well. i dint do any talkin. im sucha useless person.
fen help me to get it instead.
dan well.
ya.
i was hafin mix feelings at tt time.
it's so super.. gosh.
embarrasing.
but at e same time. im so super elated. i got his no.
=)
well..went to e canteen to join e rest(wenting.sam.johnson.maizarah(or smthn like tt.) n her frn.
ya.
dan fen got her 100 plus n went back to look for kf.
well.ya.
friday:
i cant believe i msged him.
so super. gosh. i cant find a word to say.
well.
ya.=)
n i got tickets to catch superband.!.
gosh.
.
tried to get my mum's permission to go.
wel.
u got it rite.
she dint gave me an ans.so i assumed i wil just go.
sat:
ya. mum gt flared up.
n i cant go.
FUCK.
im bloody 17.(tho i hope i dont get to 18 successfuly.i hope im dead by dan.)
tml wil b sunday.
tml wil b evn more hideous.
i hafta get my mum n dad to allow me to go ite for e time being.
cant dey just say a yes or evn a no.
n stop lettin me haf false hopes?
-i so super happy whnever i talk to him.bt i kno.
it's useless.
who wil wan a hideous person like me.
i shld kno my own limits my now.
sighs. bt how i hope .... ='(
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