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Sunday, March 19, 200611:48 PM
i kno i m being stupid.
for all e whinings n scoldings n all..
in concl.short 1.. is i love him.
i love him. n i love him. n i stil love him.
i kno i wil nvr b e perfect girl he wants.
i cant love myself . hw can i love another 1?
jus like nicole said. i cant b perfect.. n so hw can i ask him to b perfect?
i kno my mistakes..
if he evr were to come back in my life..i wil nvr evr make any mistake.
perhaps i mite..bt nt major ones.
=(
bt.i kno he wun come back.
i realise..i m back to my old habits.
fuckin bad habits.
i wonder hw many cuts to death.
=(.
i need more medicine.
it's hard lookin at e mirror w/o scoldin myself.
i wanted him to live in guilt. actually i lived in guilt myself...for pushin him too hard tt he wans to getaway.
i almost smash e mirror. control.control.
it's nt gd to b so emo.
i hate dis feelin.
i hate cuttin myself.but i gain pleasure in doin it.wth..
i gain temporary loss in memory of him.
im sorry.
i rili.stil love him no matter wad.
n i kno he wun come back..........nt evn if i die......lols....lols... hais.
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